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In our country that is steeped in homophobia, do you ladies ever wish to be straight and do you think that your lives would be happier, easier, more fufilling and generally better if you were straight?

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Lol.. 

I literally laughed out loud when I saw the headline. 

For me it's a no brainer..if I ever wish to be straight, I turn Straight.

But I can't understand why I'd wish for something that is in my power. 

I am who I am, and I am mighty proud of it. 

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Being straight is not some hard unachievable stunt.

I lived as straight for the longest time. I wished and wished I could be gay and then one day I became myself.

Been there done that, nothing there for me. So no, I don't wish that,

Now what I really wish for is to be the richest black woman on earth. Hehehe.

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For me what  l have come to understand over the years, is that you are just who you are. Is either you stop acting on your feelings but does not make you straight bcos within you, you know you are still very much attracted to girls.

like my story, l fell in love with a woman  who could pass for a mother to me. We lived together for like 10yrs, the first six years we were fully dating and the other four years the relationship was just mutual. The reason why,families and church pressure. so she pleased that we should stop and we have to pray about it to over our feelings for each. lt was a very tough struggle but somehow we did over came it. So at a time l thought,  l was straight but still  l couldn't date a guy.  So what l did, was to have a long distance relationship bcos l couldn't  stand a guy being  on my neck. Then came the family  and church  pressure to get married  being  the first daughter of my mom, who had just two girls. My younger sister was already  married.

 

So after so pressure from my woman, bcos she always felt like people  are feeling  is her that is keeping  me from settling down and l was over due. So l decided  to settle and l got married  to a child hood friend  who has always  been on my case and he's based abroad. The only reason why l decided to marry him, was  because  he is based  abroad  and we had this understanding that l will not relocate, within  me, l needed  my space. So the marriage was done  glamorously, it was like a carnival. My woman sponsored it all to make me happy and escorted me with a fourteen sitter bus filled with all sort of gifts that will make a woman comfortable in marriage and my family was well pleased.

Then three months  passed and the marriage ended. The guy was a torn in my flesh , he makes trouble  over every pin and the mother will not let me be. We got separated. As God will have, l took in the first month. when my child  was old enough, l gifted every single  thing l had out that has to do with that marriage. SO l relocated to get away from unnecessarily family  issues. l have nothing for now for a start but l discovered  this genuine peace of mind and am very happy even though  l don't  have much for now.

And l also discovered  l genuinely  LOVE GIRLS , there is no other way to it, is just who you are. People  are surprised at the easy l took the break up, but the truth  is, bcos l just love girls.

ls true Nigeria  is homophobia , but the thing is that you don't  have to front your relationships  in public. Even the straight  people don't  go kissing  in public  in Nigeria , so why should l? This Nigeria!

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Wow @MENA that is one story. Kudos for taking that leap of faith. Everything will be fine in a jiffy. I am rooting for you.

 

I always say it, can lez girls stop getting married to men for a moment??? 

 

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5 minutes ago, vina said:

Wow @MENA that is one story. Kudos for taking that leap of faith. Everything will be fine in a jiffy. I am rooting for you.

 

I always say it, can lez girls stop getting married to men for a moment??? 

 

@vina Thanks :597f824b9bcf2_tw_blush1:

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Lol. Like Vina, I would rather spend those wishes on more world/life changing accomplishments.

Did I ever wish this? Certainly. I was younger and wanted so much to be like everyone else. 😊

Now, Lol. I am older and wiser and I know better... the path comes with massive challenges. It's never easy when you are swimming against the tides but the truth is there is no better way to live than to be true to one's self.

 

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Yes,  I do wish I was straight, sometimes.  to be honest, its easier to be straight. because being gay in the Nigerian society is such a hard, expensive and unsustainable existence, one spent in fear, living  in closet,  humiliation, and if unfortunate could be maim,  or killed.   Would I have  been  happier being straight ? No.  I won't.  But a least I will not always look over my shoulders and wish things  turned out differently. Don't get me wrong, I love being gay.  I love women,  if I could  choose to be straight? I wouldn't. I could only wish.

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2 hours ago, scarlet said:

because being gay in the Nigerian society is such a hard, expensive

That right there is a sad reality. 

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What a question! As a matter of fact and sincerity, I live my life happier, easier, more fufilling, accomplished, more accomodating and far better than a straight woman. And if I have 9 lives, I would still live blessed and happier more than a straight woman would. 

I love me myself and I this way.  Even a straight girl will tell you it's not easy, life itself is not easy. 

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6 hours ago, MENA said:

For me what  l have come to understand over the years, is that you are just who you are. Is either you stop acting on your feelings but does not make you straight bcos within you, you know you are still very much attracted to girls.

like my story, l fell in love with a woman  who could pass for a mother to me. We lived together for like 10yrs, the first six years we were fully dating and the other four years the relationship was just mutual. The reason why,families and church pressure. so she pleased that we should stop and we have to pray about it to over our feelings for each. lt was a very tough struggle but somehow we did over came it. So at a time l thought,  l was straight but still  l couldn't date a guy.  So what l did, was to have a long distance relationship bcos l couldn't  stand a guy being  on my neck. Then came the family  and church  pressure to get married  being  the first daughter of my mom, who had just two girls. My younger sister was already  married.

 

So after so pressure from my woman, bcos she always felt like people  are feeling  is her that is keeping  me from settling down and l was over due. So l decided  to settle and l got married  to a child hood friend  who has always  been on my case and he's based abroad. The only reason why l decided to marry him, was  because  he is based  abroad  and we had this understanding that l will not relocate, within  me, l needed  my space. So the marriage was done  glamorously, it was like a carnival. My woman sponsored it all to make me happy and escorted me with a fourteen sitter bus filled with all sort of gifts that will make a woman comfortable in marriage and my family was well pleased.

Then three months  passed and the marriage ended. The guy was a torn in my flesh , he makes trouble  over every pin and the mother will not let me be. We got separated. As God will have, l took in the first month. when my child  was old enough, l gifted every single  thing l had out that has to do with that marriage. SO l relocated to get away from unnecessarily family  issues. l have nothing for now for a start but l discovered  this genuine peace of mind and am very happy even though  l don't  have much for now.

And l also discovered  l genuinely  LOVE GIRLS , there is no other way to it, is just who you are. People  are surprised at the easy l took the break up, but the truth  is, bcos l just love girls.

ls true Nigeria  is homophobia , but the thing is that you don't  have to front your relationships  in public. Even the straight  people don't  go kissing  in public  in Nigeria , so why should l? This Nigeria!

I love your story. Honestly I wish you all the best! 😊

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2 hours ago, Teewhy said:

What a question! As a matter of fact and sincerity, I live my life happier, easier, more fufilling, accomplished, more accomodating and far better than a straight woman. And if I have 9 lives, I would still live blessed and happier more than a straight woman would. 

I love me myself and I this way.  Even a straight girl will tell you it's not easy, life itself is not easy. 

Honestly, I love your answer. I always thought that being gay gave me an automatic bulls**t detector when it came to guys who claimed to be interested in me. It's so nice that you are able to live an awesome life. kudos!

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There was a point in my life where I'll go i I I wouldn't change it...i wouldn't be me if i did. thats a simple fact of life. i remember once being told that it was something i could work through if i truly wanted to, and it was then that i realized there is no straight version of me. you either get the gay me or the closeted me, and honestly the closeted me was no fun.

 Being gay has taught me soo much, not just about myself but about how the world works. I'm not saying I'm an expert but it's taught me tolerance and it's taught me to judge people for how they are not who they are. It's taught me that it's ok to be myself and not to try and be anyone else. And while people argue that turning straight wouldn't take the things I learned away, I'm still learning I don't think im anywhere close to understanding myself but I learn more everyday. And it's all because I'm gay. So like I said I wouldn't change.

 
 
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On 11/14/2017 at 12:09 PM, MENA said:

For me what  l have come to understand over the years, is that you are just who you are. Is either you stop acting on your feelings but does not make you straight bcos within you, you know you are still very much attracted to girls.

like my story, l fell in love with a woman  who could pass for a mother to me. We lived together for like 10yrs, the first six years we were fully dating and the other four years the relationship was just mutual. The reason why,families and church pressure. so she pleased that we should stop and we have to pray about it to over our feelings for each. lt was a very tough struggle but somehow we did over came it. So at a time l thought,  l was straight but still  l couldn't date a guy.  So what l did, was to have a long distance relationship bcos l couldn't  stand a guy being  on my neck. Then came the family  and church  pressure to get married  being  the first daughter of my mom, who had just two girls. My younger sister was already  married.

 

So after so pressure from my woman, bcos she always felt like people  are feeling  is her that is keeping  me from settling down and l was over due. So l decided  to settle and l got married  to a child hood friend  who has always  been on my case and he's based abroad. The only reason why l decided to marry him, was  because  he is based  abroad  and we had this understanding that l will not relocate, within  me, l needed  my space. So the marriage was done  glamorously, it was like a carnival. My woman sponsored it all to make me happy and escorted me with a fourteen sitter bus filled with all sort of gifts that will make a woman comfortable in marriage and my family was well pleased.

Then three months  passed and the marriage ended. The guy was a torn in my flesh , he makes trouble  over every pin and the mother will not let me be. We got separated. As God will have, l took in the first month. when my child  was old enough, l gifted every single  thing l had out that has to do with that marriage. SO l relocated to get away from unnecessarily family  issues. l have nothing for now for a start but l discovered  this genuine peace of mind and am very happy even though  l don't  have much for now.

And l also discovered  l genuinely  LOVE GIRLS , there is no other way to it, is just who you are. People  are surprised at the easy l took the break up, but the truth  is, bcos l just love girls.

ls true Nigeria  is homophobia , but the thing is that you don't  have to front your relationships  in public. Even the straight  people don't  go kissing  in public  in Nigeria , so why should l? This Nigeria!

Wow..... Wow.... 

*hugs*

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2 hours ago, Hawken said:

I honestly do not even care. My only wish is to have plenty money, because when you do, nobody cares and all labels fall away.

Exactly!

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On 14/11/2017 at 12:09 PM, MENA said:

For me what  l have come to understand over the years, is that you are just who you are. Is either you stop acting on your feelings but does not make you straight bcos within you, you know you are still very much attracted to girls.

like my story, l fell in love with a woman  who could pass for a mother to me. We lived together for like 10yrs, the first six years we were fully dating and the other four years the relationship was just mutual. The reason why,families and church pressure. so she pleased that we should stop and we have to pray about it to over our feelings for each. lt was a very tough struggle but somehow we did over came it. So at a time l thought,  l was straight but still  l couldn't date a guy.  So what l did, was to have a long distance relationship bcos l couldn't  stand a guy being  on my neck. Then came the family  and church  pressure to get married  being  the first daughter of my mom, who had just two girls. My younger sister was already  married.

 

So after so pressure from my woman, bcos she always felt like people  are feeling  is her that is keeping  me from settling down and l was over due. So l decided  to settle and l got married  to a child hood friend  who has always  been on my case and he's based abroad. The only reason why l decided to marry him, was  because  he is based  abroad  and we had this understanding that l will not relocate, within  me, l needed  my space. So the marriage was done  glamorously, it was like a carnival. My woman sponsored it all to make me happy and escorted me with a fourteen sitter bus filled with all sort of gifts that will make a woman comfortable in marriage and my family was well pleased.

Then three months  passed and the marriage ended. The guy was a torn in my flesh , he makes trouble  over every pin and the mother will not let me be. We got separated. As God will have, l took in the first month. when my child  was old enough, l gifted every single  thing l had out that has to do with that marriage. SO l relocated to get away from unnecessarily family  issues. l have nothing for now for a start but l discovered  this genuine peace of mind and am very happy even though  l don't  have much for now.

And l also discovered  l genuinely  LOVE GIRLS , there is no other way to it, is just who you are. People  are surprised at the easy l took the break up, but the truth  is, bcos l just love girls.

ls true Nigeria  is homophobia , but the thing is that you don't  have to front your relationships  in public. Even the straight  people don't  go kissing  in public  in Nigeria , so why should l? This Nigeria!

@MENA,your story broke my heart but sounds like something I can do. I can't wait to find my feet financially and then have a baby of my own and gave the world. 

I don't care what the world gives me as long as I can afford my needs

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3 hours ago, Hawken said:

I honestly do not even care. My only wish to to have plenty money, because when you do, nobody cares and all labels fall away.

This right here is what matters. With enough money you can screw whom ever you like in peace without fear of mob action.  

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3 hours ago, Hawken said:

I honestly do not even care. My only wish to to have plenty money, because when you do, nobody cares and all labels fall away.

Gbam!

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