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******************** True to her words, a car arrived for me the next day and the first thing that came to my mind was WTF!! I called her immediately. "Audrey, you didnt tell me you were buying my womb. A f***king range rover? Really?" "Lily, I'm pretty much bummed from work and I got the car way cheaper, its no big deal, I'm rich" She sounded really tired and I felt bad for bugging her. "I'm sorry, just didn't want you to go out of your way for me" "You are going out of your way for me so... Listen, I'm going to take care of you, always. So do you like the car?" I smiled happily as I admired the car. "Yes, its amazing. Thanks" *********** It was another week before we visited the doctor. I travelled down to her city and I was given a clean bill of health. It was another month before the foetus was introduced into my womb. The doctors said its a fifty fifty percent success rate but I know deep down that it was going to stick. For her sakes I prayed for it to stay and stay it did. I called her one morning to let her know the good news, my dozen home tests all showed the same results. "Audrey, I'm pregnant!" She screamed for joy and by evening she was with me in my city. She fussed over me, handed over a gazillion books on pregnancy to me while keeping some on parenting for herself. I stayed up in her hotel room for a long while. She dropped kisses on my flat stomach and even spoke to it. It was the weirdest thing ever but it gave me butterflies and definitely made me wet a little. "Have you told my brother?" "Nope, just you. I wanted you to know first, you could tell them if you want" "Wise. Are you hungry?" She fed me till I was full and the next day, she took me to register for antenatal at one of the best hospitals in town. According to her, she wasn't going to take any chances. The doctors were satisfied with me and the baby. We were both doing fine. Later that day, she travelled back and I missed her terribly. My sister hugged me when I got home and started to tell tales about pregnancy and child birth and I really wasn't interested. She couldn't stop yapping and I was bored out of my mind. I feigned vomiting and ran into the toilet to sit there. I was suddenly overcome with emotions and I started to cry. I cried silently for no reason and when I was done, I started to laugh at my own stupidity. It was in that condition that Audrey called me. "You sound funny, is the baby alright, are you feeling well?" "Yeah, I am fine, just so hormonal" We chatted for a while before she got off the phone to work. I slept fitfully that day. I was about two months gone when I sat in my bed again in tears, I was so horny I could hump a leg or any hard surface. I was thinking of bringing myself to orgasm when I remembered that, Audrey and I had a deal. I dialed her number immediately. "Aud!!" "Hey Lily, you sound beat again, I thought you were strong though, what happened to super woman?" "It's not funny Aud, it's funny to you because you ain't the one with another person growing inside of you!" "I didn't mean it like that, I'm sorry, that was distasteful. So how are you?" "I'm horny Aud, I need you, I could rape myself right now!" I burst into fresh tears and I can feel Audrey getting tensed. "Why dont you?" "Do what?" "You know, touch yourself?" "Aud I have been doing that, I need someone, I need you." I said hiccuping and blowing my nose. "God! I'm so nervous, you're really going to make me do this Lily." "Yes" Was all I said before she cut the line. A few minutes later, a young man was in our sitting room, asking for me. When I came out to see him, he explained that Audrey had asked him to drive me down to her. I parked my stuffs and pills and soon I was on my way to her. I was dead tired when we arrived and it's the first time I'm in her house since I got pregnant. She's dressed casually cooking in the kitchen and my mouth watered. My appetite has been gregarious this past few weeks. She hugged me once she saw me and I held her tight for longer than necessary before bursting into tears again. She stroked my back and told me it would be fine. I breathed in her scent and I was mesmerised. She guided me to a cushion once I was able to let her go and she started to rub my feet. It felt divine and I drifted off on her lap. When I awoke, I was aware of the sweet smell of food wafting into my nostrils. "I knew that would wake you up. Hope you like gourmet?" I sat up and dug into the palatable meal set before me with juice. "Yum! This is so good. I didnt know career women cooked" "Stop being silly. You could just say thank you" "Thank you" I said with my mouth full. She smiled that sweet dimpled smile and continued watching me. " you wont eat?" " no I'm fine" She replied before turning to her ipad. I cleared my plates and she called for her maid to come clear my dishes. "Nina, you can help yourself to some food. I cooked" She told the house maid who looked shocked for a while there. "And you can go back to your quarters when you are done, I need some alone time." She still had that damned ipad in hand even as she spoke, her eyes never left it. "I didn't come all this way to watch you work you know?" I said sarcastically before standing up. "I dont know if to hate you Lily, you are so impossible. Come, lets go upstairs" I followed her meekly as I took in the beautiful house she had. We got to her room and my breath is taken away. It was pristine and just so modern. f***k! This woman was rich. I went into the bathroom to take a bath and she did same after me. I'm in the bathrobe and nothing else while she changed into her night gown. I watched her curiously as she climbed into bed with me. There is a loud silence as I gave her time to calm down. "What next Lily the experienced!" " well, it always starts with a kiss, oh virgin Audrey! How long has it been since you were with anyone?" She jumped me playfully and smacked my bum. I squealed like a child before I saw her eyes and I was lost. I licked my lips and her eyes followed the movement. She pinned my hands above my head before dipping in to taste my lips. I sighed contentedly, this was heaven. I handed it to her, she was a good kisser. God I was so horny, I started to thrust my waist into hers, I was like a bitch in heat. "Aud please!" I said into her mouth "God please, I'm so nervous, tell me what you want, please" "Kiss my breasts" "Okay" She said eagerly. She opened my robe and my impressively huge pregnancy boobs fell out. She wasted no time in suckling them like she was a new born. I was soaking wet and I made no efforts to conceal my moans. I writhed under her and pulled her hands to my second nipple, she got the gist and started to roll one nipple around, with the other in her mouth. "Yes! Oh yeah! Hmmmm" I was going out of my mind, my tits were so sensitive under her inexperienced hands. I wanted more twenty minutes later and I licked my lips as I thought about making my request in a way that wouldn't frighten her. "Aud, could you maybe lick me?" "I am doing just that Lily," "I meant lick me somewhere else, like down there" She sat on her hunch and looked at me like I had grown a horn. "What did you think lesbian sex involved Aud? You thought you were just going to suck my tits till I came?" "Well, I googled lesbian sex and even watched some videos, I just didn't expect that you would get me to do this" "Of course i would, it's the fastest way to get me off" "I should have figured" She replied biting her lips. That was so sexy! "Get to work Aud, trust me, its not so bad" I spread my legs for her and almost laugh at her panicked expression. She sprawled on the bed between my legs and I heard her take a whiff of my scent. She started to trace her fingers over my swollen mound and I heard her say "wow" She opened me up and looked her fill, tracing the outlines of my vagina. I feel her index finger sliding into me and a deep moan escaped my lips. "Ahhhhhh" I then felt the tip of her tongue on my engorged clit, she didn't get the full taste I suppose because she withdrew her fingers and buried her tongue deep inside my p**sy. I jump off the bed as the feeling drowns me. "Yes Aud! Yes!!!" She rolled that expert tongue inside me before withdrawing it again. This time she focused on my little love button and she brought me off in record time. I came hard in her mouth, the orgasm is so intense that I felt myself crying but she didn't stop. I tried to push her head but its like she's glued there, she kept at it, sucking and slurping and eating. I never come twice in a row but I felt my orgasm building again. I looked at her and she's lost, her eyes are glazed over. She reached for my nipples and that is all it took for me to tip over the edge a second time. The orgasm crashed into me like a trailer and I'm shaking as it goes on and on. "Yes, ahhhhh, f***k, f***k, f***k!!!!!" I am scared that she would continue but she didn't. She licked me clean and then climbed up my body. We kissed long and hard as I tasted myself on her lips. I held her head in place as I licked around her face, all the edges, trying as much as possible to clean my wetness off her mouth. She moaned and ground into me, her clit making contact with my mound and then she adjusted and I felt the pressure on my clit. The pleasure was instantaneous and I couldn't believe that I was wet and ready again. "Oh!! Yes!! Faster Aud!!" I screamed and thrash about before taking my pleasure into my hands. I grabbed her waist and pressed it harder to my clit, then I started to move along with her, my breasts bouncing up and down. She came first with a grunt and I followed shortly after. "geez! There's no way in hell this was your first time!" I said breathing heavily. I was so satiated and content. I even got a little more than I bargained for but i wasn't complaining at all. She rolled off me finally and turned her back to me. A few minutes later she got up to use the bathroom and I stayed on my back, looking towards the bathroom, wondering how she felt. Now that we werent f***king, the temperature in the room had dropped and I was getting cold. I pulled up the duvet and slid under it. She climbed into bed once she got back and we naturally gravitated towards each other. I pressed my back to her front and she sighed into my neck. "Do you want to talk about it?" I asked finally breaking the silence. ******* More coming up.

So, I was a bit of a nymph.... This is not the way to start a story, scratch that. I am Lily and this is my story. I stayed with my married sister and she had three kids, happily married and steadily climbing up the ladder of success. Me? I was the last born that refused to grow up, refused to settle down. For obvious reasons which my family never agreed to see, I couldn't settle down. You see! I was gay but I prided in the knowledge of my secretiveness. I mean, nobody knew about that aspect of my life. I had always liked girls and I had done everything to make sure I f***ked half the population of girls on earth, to be honest, I wasn't close to the goal yet. It was a normal sunday like every other, we were back from church and sitting round the dining table, eating and drinking when my in law decided to announce that his elder sister would be visiting and she wanted to see me. Wait! What!!! Me? Aunty Audrey was my in law's elder sister and she was quite a hot woman, I noticed. Even though I noticed that she was hot, and I pretty much liked her a lot, I never did anything to show it to her. On the contrary, I always worked in reverse. My mother always said God wired me differently, if only she knew how right she was. I liked Aunty Audrey but as usual, when I liked girls, I did all I could to act other wise. Aunty Audrey had known me since I was about thirteen years old. She'd seen me grow up into the woman that I was now, she knew when I finished university and was even part of the people that encouraged me to get a masters degree. Now, Aunty Audrey was as rich as Croesus. She had a huge fashion house with branches scattered all over the country. She owned more businesses than I could count and she probably had investment in every single country. This could be another reason why I never got close to her, I didn't want her to think I was licking her ass because she was rich. So I stayed away from her if i could manage it. We met often in family functions and I tried a little to hold conversations with her when necessary. Even at forty, Aunty Audrey was gorgeous and fit, looked half her age and was a fashion killer. It always made me wonder why she never got married or had any children. So what did Aunty Audrey want with me?? I pondered on it for a long while as I laid on my bed and starred off at the ceiling. I was always ill mannered so I wouldn't be surprised if my folks had reported an issue to her. Reminds me of the stunt i had pulled recently, leaving home for about two days, partying and having wild orgies while my family worried about my whereabouts. I had even turned off my phone, God! I was such a fool, why had I done that? Now they had gone to tell on me, to a higher power. I couldn't stand Aunty Audrey, she intimidated the f***k out of me. I waited patiently for her arrival. She lived in another city close to ours so it took her a while to arrive. I heard a car honk at about five pm and the one thing on my mind was how late it was. Aunty Audrey never slept over and I didn't believe she was about to start now. I moved out my room to the sitting room and Waited for the commotion to start. My nephew and nieces all run out screaming her name. She always had gifts for them. My sister and her husband followed suite while I just sat nervously and chewed my nails. The party soon came inside and I greeted her nervously. She replied me nervously too and it stunned me for a minute. She's usually so full of bravado, what was wrong with everyone today? My in law soon directed us all to the dining table while we let the kids open up their gifts. It was all really getting weird and honestly I was starting to go off my mind. We all took our seats and the elders cough and clear their throats while looking at each other. "What the f***k is going on?" I asked alarmingly and finally my elder sister decided to bell the cat. "Lily, you know how aunty Audrey got too busy with her career and forgot about relationships and kids?" I shifted uneasily in my chair, all the while wondering how her lack of planning had anything to do with me. My sister continued. "Well, she has realized her errors but biology must take place surely, she has always wanted children but the doctor advises against it so she was hoping that you could maybe help her" WTF! I am shocked, I just sat there and watched them one after the other, my eyes taking them in like they were some group of aliens. Aunty Audrey watched me expectantly, I could see the hope and faith in her eyes. It took a minute for me to get myself and I opened my heavy mouth and ask "Why me? She's rich, she could get a carrier or something." Aunty Audrey finally spoke, she sat up and reached for my hands across the table as she stroked them affectionately. My naughty p**sy reacted to her touch. "Why not you Lily? I know you, its easier, I can see you all the time, you are family and I can have a little bit of control over the period of the pregnancy, I can even be a part of the pregnancy, I have thought about it and it all ends well" I saw her vision, and I knew she was right. Pregnancy didn't scare me a bit, I had been pregnant before and it had been glorious for the few months I allowed the baby stay in me before I had to abort. Well, it hadn't been all that glorious, I remembered puking my intestines out and also losing appetite but still I wasn't scared of pregnancy or labor or anything. I was just scared about being emotionally attached to the kid. I would get to see this kid every time as Aunty Audrey was family. How would I react whenever I saw this kid? Technically according to Aunty Audrey, she had freezed her eggs so the baby wouldn't even have any thing to do with me. I had nothing to lose, I was at a place where I was bored to death and I needed the adventure this journey would bring so I agreed. The adults leaped in joy and hugged each other while I just sat there and watched them with an amused smile on my face. Aunty Audrey had no idea of whom she was dealing with. She really thought it would be this easy? I had some conditions lined up in my mind and to God, she wouldn't be this happy when she heard of them. * *********************** I called Aunty Audrey to the side and told her we needed a private discussion. She changed her plans for me and decided to lodge in a hotel that night. She was a workaholic so basically, she would be on the road early the next day back to work. We checked into the hotel together but I stayed and waited at the bar while she rushed upstairs to her room to drop her bags. She returned some minutes later looking refreshed. We ordered drinks and I downed my cup faster than you could say jack because I knew soon enough, I wouldn't be able to do this. "Easy tiger, you still have at least a month before you can wean yourself off alcohol" She said smiling happily. She looked genuinely so happy, I don't think I had ever seen her this way, she was glowing and I heard my heart thump wildly in my chest. Damn!! "So what are your conditions? I know all about you Lily, I know how naughty and crazy you are and I'm sorry for wanting to tie you down like this, before you start, I want you to know that you would be well taken care of. I just called my dealer to order a car for you, I'm sorry that I dint even ask you what model you liked but I just imagined that an SUV would be more comfortable for you?" I looked at her in shock. " you did what? Aunty Audrey, a new car is hardly necessary. School is just a bus away" "Firstly, call me Audrey, secondly, this is about my baby. I wouldn't want anything that would stress you or my baby. Your comfort first. It's a done deal anyway, your car should arrive by tomorrow, now what are those conditions?" I shook my head and wondered why I never noticed that she was this controlling and bull headed. Well, I barely knew the woman. "See Audrey, I'm going to be carrying your baby and this would be my first and I really would prefer a vaginal birth so technically all doctors advice frequent sex" Her smile wiped off as she considered my statement. I looked at her boldly, waiting for her to speak. "Well, you have a boyfriend dont you?" "Audrey, I'm gay and I'm single right now" She didn't flinch or react and it's hard for me to know what she was thinking. "Well, I pretty much suspected, all your pictures are with girls or girls who look like men. See Lily , you're a big girl, you could get sex from pretty much anyone, and you're pretty too" "Lets cut the bullshit Audrey, if I'm going to be carrying your baby then it should be you inside me. It allows us bond and ultimately creates a good atmosphere for your baby" She's stunned speechless for a minute there. "Lily, I simply cannot sleep with you, I'm not even gay, you're half my age and we are family" "Do you want to really do this or not? Just this one condition and you are giving excuses. Its not a death sentence, just sex!" She sighed exhaustingly. "Lily I have no idea on lesbian sex, I wouldn't know the first thing to do" "Thank God there's one experienced person amongst us" I said this while sipping more of my wine. "And if I'm bad? " " I can live with bad sex Audrey" "God! My boyfriend would have a fit if he finds out, not to mention your sister and my brother. They would be so disappointed in me" "Then don't tell anyone, this is between me and you" "Why are you doing this Lily? You know you could get sex anywhere." I smiled at that and I didn't reply. She clutched her head and looked off into space for a long time. I really was a bitch though! "Ok, I would do anything you want." "Good girl!" I exclaimed as I laughed happily. " I'm hardly a girl anymore" She said smiling and a dimple breaks out on her cheeks. Why haven't I ever noticed it? "You are definitely a babe. Only girls have boyriends" She sipped her wine and watched me with new found eyes, like I had grown a horn or something. "I always knew you were bad Lily, but even this surprises me" "You don't know the half of it Audrey" ******************** Part two coming up..

"Does it always feel this good? Was it even good for you? It definitely felt good for me like i never imagined eating another woman out would feel so good... You taste so delicious and..." "Hey slow down!" I exclaimed laughing before turning around to face her. "I hope i haven't created a p**sy loving monster though? It doesn't always feel this good, nobody has ever made me come twice in a row and you did it thrice." "I didn't want to stop once I started, did I hurt you?" "No, you were gentle. I knew you would like it!" "I haven't said I liked it." I ignored her and turned back to my position and she held me to her tighter. *********************** I woke the next morning to someone singing and talking to my stomach. Wtf! Where was I? I sat up and looked at my bed partner groggily. "You have a beautiful singing voice Aud." "morning beautiful" She said ignoring my compliment. "Well, okay. Ain't you going to work today?" "Erm, no. Thought we could spend sometime together." We did just that, talked about possible names for the baby if it were a boy or a girl. Some of the names she suggested were just bizarre, I laughed till my tummy hurt. There was really more to Aud than met the eye. **************** I was about five months gone when I went for antenatal and got the shock of my life. It was going to be the first clear ultrasound I got. Aud and I agreed that I would keep the sex of the baby to myself. She wanted a surprise and I respected her wishes. The relationship between Aud and I had also blossomed in the few months and I was genuinely happy. She took care of me and made sure I lacked nothing, she was the wife every gay woman could dream of. Pity she wasn't gay. I couldn't believe that Aunty Audrey was now Aud to me. If my sister and brother in-law noticed the closeness between Aud and I, they really didn't comment on it. So I was at the doctors, having lube rubbed on my naked stomach. The doctor started and suddenly she stood there in shock. "Miss Lily, I can hear another heartbeat, oh my God, see!!! There are totally two babies!!!" I looked at the screen in surprise and sure enough, I could see the outlines of two babies. My God!!! I wondered how Aud would take this news. What are the chances that this could happen? I covered my eyes with my hand and sighed deeply. My vitals were good, the babies were fine and the sexes were still not certain. I clutched the picture of the ultrasound close to my heart as I sat in my car. How would Aud take this? I contemplated dialing her number right there at the parking lot but I thought better of it. I drove straight to class and after my lectures, I drove home. My sister sensed my mood and went into experienced mother mode. "I'm fine sis, the pregnancy isn't that stressful but here..." I handed her the picture of the ultrasound and she looked at it for a while before it registered. "Holy molly! Aunty is having twins?" She jumped into the air and started to dance and sing praises to God and to me. She sung my praise in our dialect and I couldn't help it, I smiled happily. I felt proud, on top of the world, like I really had a hand in the making of the twins. "Have you told aunty?" "No, I'm scared, what if it doesn't make her happy?" My sister broke into my praises again. "Who doesn't like a good thing?" I'm fired up and I go into my room. I take off my two sizes bigger bra and climbed into bed. I dialed her number and she picked up almost immediately. "Hey baby!" I still couldn't get used to her calling me baby. It did weird things to my stomach and heart. Aud!!! I swallowed before I replied. "Hey Aud. Are you free? I want to talk to you about something" "Yes I am free! Lily! Is the baby okay? Are you okay? I could come over right now." "Aud easy! The baby is fine, I am fine too" She sighed and breathed down. "Talk to me babe, what is it? Horny again?" I laughed despite the situation. "Aud! Yes I am always horny but its not that. Your baby is actually babies Aud, I went for my appointment today and it's more than one baby inside of me" "I dont get you, are you saying, I am expecting babies? Just how many are we talking about here?" She didn't sound displeased, and even if she did, this wasn't my fault, I was only carrying what was put inside of me. I started to wonder why I was even bothered in the first place. "Aud, you are having twins" "Yes!!! God I am so happy, I could kiss you right now" "I didnt expect this reaction" I said thoughtfully. " what did you expect? I asked for one and I'm getting two? I never thought I could get so lucky. To think I already started buying things for one baby. I am so happy Lily, thanks for doing this for me" "Yeah, I guess. I have to get Shea butter and other oils though, I don't want to get stretch marks" "Will that work?" "I read somewhere that it would, as long as I am consistent with it" "Ok, I would get those for you. I miss you and my babies, how about coming down for the easter holidays?" "Do you miss f***king me?" Silence. Ear breaking silence, but I do not give up, I waited for an answer. "I guess?" "Aud, would it kill you to just admit that you have a thing for pregnant girls?" "Not all pregnant girls Lily, just you. Yes, I miss f***king you. Happy now?" I smiled so big that I feared my face would split in two. "Oh Aud! I would be on my way tomorrow" ************* Audrey's driver came to pick me up the next day. I am super conscious of my body, I wasn't really fat, I knew I wasn't. My boobs were just way bigger, my waist thicker and then there was the obvious bump. It definitely was twins as my stomach was already looking so big. I stood before the mirror once more and took in my body, I still looked good enough. I was wearing one of the many maternity gowns Aud had bought me. I had my bags, pills and toiletries ready. We drove painfully slow and I knew Aud had a hand in it. We got home anyways and I met the house empty save for the maid. The maid fussed over me and I also could see Aud's hand in it. I climbed upstairs to refresh and I changed into Aud's varsity shirt. I called Aud once I settled into the sofa with remote in hand. She picked on the first ring as usual. "Where are you?" I asked without preamble. "Hello to you too. I'm almost home" "I want Big Bens ice cream, vanilla flavor with nuts" "Did you get the part where I said I was like a block away from home?" "Aud, my ice cream or you don't step into this house!" I ended the call and smiled. Every woman should get pregnant and get pampered this way. Thirty minutes later, Aud entered the house with a bag full of Big bens ice cream, different flavors and variations inclusive. She was arranging them into the refrigerator when I walked up to her. She smiled that dimpled smile when she saw me and I walked slowly into her arms. She held me and kissed my forehead. " I thought you would be mad at me." "Never." She said simply as she brought out a variety of oils and cremes. "Wow!" "Come let me rub it in." I followed her meekly as she pushed me gently into the sofa and took off her shirt so that I am naked. I laid back and watched her beautiful long fingers get to work. She massaged the oils into my bulging tummy. She did that for a while before I realized that her hands were straying. I looked her in the eye once her oily fingers connected with my nipples. She looked away and continued massaging my breasts. It's so sensual that I start to moan and writhe in pleasure. Her hands start to go down my body and soon she was massaging my wet folds and this drove me even crazier. She soon slid her two fingers inside of me and she's so slow that I nearly ran out of my mind, her other hand is still playing with my nipples and I felt my orgasm just within arms reach. God!!! Pregnancy sex was simply the best. All of my emotions and feelings were so heightened and the orgasms were just mind blowing. I couldn't believe I was going to come so soon, she had barely done anything to me. she increased the tempo of her fingers and it doesn't take long before I started to shake and the mother of all orgasms hit me like a tsunami. "f***k!!!" I screamed as I lost myself. She was sitting there watching me as I opened my eyes. "You are getting better daily. I cant believe it was just some months ago I introduced you to this" "Well, I learnt from the best" "Nope you didn't, I haven't shown you any of my tricks" "well, its just so easy to please you" "Aud, this is good, really good but I think what I need is penetrative sex" " what? Lily I just gave you penetrative sex, I was just fingers deep inside of you a minute ago" " I know, we need something bigger" "Too bad I don't have a d**ck!" She said standing up in frustration. " you could get one if you wanted." " I can't just go and buy a d**ck... Oh wait!" I heard the bell ring in her head. "Why didn't you just say you wanted me to get a dildo? You got me scared there for a minute" "Aud! You are so impossible, of course I meant a strap on dildo." " Lily in case you didn't notice, I am old and my waist is pretty much locked in place by now, there is no way I could use a strap on dildo" "It's so much easier to use than a dildo without harness, anyways I could stay on top, if you want" I knew she had just created a mental picture of me naked, big stomach and huge tits, bouncing on top of her. Her smile is infectious. "Okay! Here is my credit card, order as many as you want." I yelped in joy as I put my shirt back on. She slapped my bum as I made pass her to the fridge to get my ice cream. ********

The title says it all. What is your opinion? Does love die or is it suppressed??

So by popular demand, I am putting this story in one place. The people I refer to it always have problems accessing all the parts and it becomes a chore. So I thought to put it all in a place for easy reading. As usual, no comments till it's done at least.. Thank you.....

Small eyes peered back at me through the full-length dressing mirror. I didn’t like what I saw, ‘too dressed up’ she would surely think so, I cooed to myself. I stooped, slipped both hands under the black bodycon dress and pulled it off me. I flung it to the bed where a red hip hugging knee-length skirt laid alongside a white chiffon top and blue jumpsuit, all of which I had tried on and taken off after deciding I would look too dressed up in them. At this point, it dawned on me that the contents of my wardrobe needed a total refurbishment, it was the only consolation I could give to my indecisiveness. After three more clothes donned and pulled off, I finally settled for a black slim-flare full length pant and multicoloured sleeveless crop top, ‘aha! this is more like it’. In no time, I was out of the house heading to the agreed meeting point. Because I took a motorcycle down to the venue, I made a conscious effort to fluff my hair which was now all over my face. ‘Damn!’ I cursed while inwardly making a solemn promise to buy a car with the first real money I come upon. By now, I knew she was running out of patience given the three calls I deliberately missed from her, so as I hurried towards the Republic of Chicken, I quickly noted that I was a bit nervous. What is wrong with you Itohan, get your head in the game and quit acting like a scared virgin. My breathing had intensified, I wasn’t feeling any better, this is not good, suddenly, a brilliant thought took flight, I retrieved my phone from my hand bag and dialled Momsi’s digits. She answered on the second ring and heaving a sigh of relief, I walked into the eatery while talking to my mom about an irrelevant matter on the phone. There she was, sitting in a corner searching the faces of customers walking into the eatery. I noticed her first and made towards her. She smiled and my heart melted when i noted her blue eyes. I knew they were lenses but damn! They suit her so well. I quickly decided that I would ask her to never take them off when we eventually start seeing each other. I mouthed, “I’m sorry” as I took a seat opposite her and continued with my phone call. That was my chance to study her flamboyant façade so I ran my eyes from her hair locked in dread to her blue eyes again, we held our gaze for a second and I continued to her lips covered in red, down to her full blown chest, I let my eyes rest there for a while before going down to her stomach where the rest of her body became invisible from the obstruction of the table between us. Assessment done, I dismissed Momsi with the promise to call her back, and turned to Brume, “hi” I said, with a smile planted on my pretty face. Oh yes! I am a good looking woman in her late twenties, you can’t tell me nothing about my looks. “hey” she said “Sorry I had to take that call, it was my mom” “It’s fine” she replied “Why aren’t you eating yet?” “I was waiting for you” Aww! That’s sweet, “Okay, let’s go order something”. We ordered moin moin and chicken plus coke. “Is Maya your real name?” she asked “errm” my cheeks were flushed knowing fully well that it would be impossible to keep up with that lie now that we are meeting face to face. “No, my name is Itohan” “Did you have to lie about your name?” “I dunno, guess I just wasn’t sure we were ever going to finally take the conversation off the social media” “Oh well, it’s just a name you know.” “I know. Sorry I lied” So, we chatted while we ate and soon, it was time for me to leave as I had somewhere else to go from there. Brume and I walked out of the eatery, we bade our goodbyes and walked in opposite directions. As I rode in a bus towards the Island, a tremor of uncertainty lurched in my guts. It was a pleasant date, but somehow, I had a feeling that was going to be our first and last meeting. It didn’t seem like she liked me as much as I liked her. “Please God, make her see me again,” I prayed.

Three Major misconceptions about mental health in Nigeria: 1. Seeing a shrink is Oyibo behavior. 2. Mental disorder is when you are roaming the streets naked. 3. Mental disorder is a curse, sign of evil spirits and a shame to one's generation. Thus, mentally imbalanced people run their day to day life like everything is alright and become potential harm to orders physically and mentally. They get in a relationship and fall in love all without addressing their mental issues until we hear stories of domestic violence and spousal killings. The most occurring mental disorder which affects relationships is delusional disorder. "Delusional disorder, previously called paranoid disorder, is a type of serious mental illness called a "psychosis" in which a person cannot tell what is real from what is imagined. The main feature of this disorder is the presence of delusions, unshakable beliefs in something untrue or not based on reality... People with delusional disorder often can continue to socialize and function normally, apart from the subject of their delusion, and generally do not behave in an obviously odd or bizarre manner." - WebMD What does this result in? Extreme Jealousy: A person with this type of delusional disorder believes that his or her spouse or sexual partner is unfaithful.-WebMd Ring a bell? They get so jealous over imaginery things they begin to check your phones, monitor and time your calls, follow you, restrict your movement etc. Persecutory: People with this type of delusional disorder believe that they are being mistreated ...-WebMD They interprete everything into mistreatment. You are busy with work? You don't wanna talk to them. You have loss of appetite? You are rejecting their food to punish them. You get angry at their plenty issues? You have been building up to this anger because you need to be mad at them. My advice: Get them to find help if not, leave.

1. They hold you accountable. They respect you enough to know what behaviors are beneath you, and love you enough to call you out on them when necessary. 2. They give you honest feedback. They don’t placate. They aren’t under the illusion that being blindly, unconditionally approving of everything you do will make you love them more. 3. They give you time to do what you love, even if that’s working a 16-hour day or seeing your friends three times a week. They aren’t so selfish as to assume they are your only priority. 4. They respect your feelings even if they don’t understand them, or agree with them. They don’t invalidate your experiences just because they’re different from their own. They appreciate the things and people you love just because you love them. 5. They are your biggest supporter in public, and your most honest sounding board behind closed doors. In both cases, they are loving but straightforward, and never condescending. They tell you the truth – but never at the expense of insulting you. 6. They don’t find your gross stuff gross. Your bodily functions become acceptable, if not endearing, parts of human life. They also oddly always think you smell great. (Note: scent is also a great way to tell whether or not you’re actually attracted to/in love with someone. The nose doesn’t lie.) 7. They don’t think your imperfections are deal-breakers. They’re honestly willing to cope with your actual life issues because being with you is worth it to them. 8. They open up about the less flattering parts of their own lives. They’d rather you see them for who they really are and be honest than inflate themselves and have you fall in love with a person they’re only pretending to be. 9. They’re happy to do boring stuff with you. Cooking dinner, running errands, and driving in the car become incredible adventures when they’re around. 10. They aren’t afraid to hash out an argument when an argument needs to be had. They care a lot more about making sure your relationship is healthy than their ego being bruised a bit. 11. They get a little jealous when they hear about past relationships, or see someone checking you out. Never to the point that they’re aggressive or controlling, but a feeling of protectiveness definitely comes up (and you love it). 12. You’ve seen them mad, sad, frustrated, and everything in-between. They show you their full range of emotions, which is the healthiest thing that you can possibly do. If you’re only seeing them “happy” all of the time, they aren’t comfortable enough to be honest with you yet. 13. They not only want to take care of you when you’re sick, but are willing to clean up bodily fluids, check out weird bug bites/rashes and other unseemly things, because making sure that you’re healthy and safe is their top, if not only, priority. 14. They make you feel like staying home with them on a Friday is infinitely more fun than any kind of over-the-top fancy pants date that anyone else has tried to take you on. 15. They love you most when it’s necessary, not when it’s easy. They love you more in the moments that would otherwise push people away. They love you with actions, not promises. They show you that they love you by making your life better in every way, not just promising that they do and then stepping out when you need love most. Culled from https://thoughtcatalog.com/brianna-wiest/2016/09/15-unromantic-ways-you-know-someone-really-loves-you/

I've heard it said countless of times "if it's yours, it will come back to you". What are your thoughts about this as it relates to relationships and love?

As her lips explored every edge of mine, with her big palms cupping my 36 C sized boobs, my mind was playing tricks with me, instead of getting my head in the game and savour every moment with my girlfriend of 13 months, my vagabonding mind chose to note irrelevant constants about Toju like her minty breath, her soft succulent lips, her small rounded nose, her hazel eyes which not many Nigerians obviously have… She deepened the kiss and I parted my lips even more to encourage her despite the fact that I wasn’t feeling any of it. Toju is a terrible kisser.*Was* maybe, as she had gotten better with time compared to how horrible she was when we first started, with her tongue lapping the whole of my face like a dog, submerging it in saliva. It had taken tutorials from me to get her ameliorated. My hands went to grab her bum, the very feature that first arrested my attention. The way it filled out the seat of her pants, spreading out in curves and highlighting every edge, swinging from side to side had beckoned to me in an inaudible “come to me Livia” and I had gone. Sensing my straying mind, Toju rolled over, taking me with her so that I am on top straddling her. But I was too lost to even make love to her. She was fondling my funbags, still trying to encourage me, I dropped small kisses on her face as her hand slowly worked its way down to my navel, to my mound with thicket of hair and then into my v.jay and the hand stopped moving. For 20 seconds it remained still inside me while her eyes burning with hurt drilled holes inside my apologetic ones, For all the time that we've spent in foreplay, there wasn’t a drop of wetness in me. Gradually, she withdrew, pushed me off her and went straight to the bathroom without a word. “Who is she?” She asked me after spending well over 15mins in the bathroom. I sensed she may have been crying when she came back to bed. I could choose to pretend not to understand her question, but I’d be making her more angry by feigning ignorance. So I said “I'm sorry, baby I truly am”. Toju isn’t one to talk too much, she simply turned her back to me in an inaudible “good night”. No, the night was far from good, it was indeed the longest and agonizing of all, with me turning and tossing and her sniffing and whimpering until first light. Looking at our faces in the morning while she packed her things, you would think we had just finished participating in the Lagos Marathon. The look in her eyes while she walked out the door, was priceless, though she said nothing to me, but I could feel the love dissipate and in replacement, unquantifiable hatred. I just broke a heart, the heart that had given me nothing but love. That was 6 months ago, now standing before the mirror with a black eyed face staring back at me and a naked Jezebel in my bed, thinking about all that went down, the only conclusion I could reach for my predicament is karma. I was with Toju for 13 months and not one day did we fight, but since the first week with this Jezebel, fighting was all we did. How I ended up losing the best thing that ever happened to me because of a devilish lust for ‘Karashika' remains unfathomable. All I could say was that the forces that conjoined to do this to me very well succeeded.. but mama always said that mistakes happen so we can learn. I made a mistake and I want to make it right because I have learned. So, summoning every courage, I left a note for Jezebel, telling her I was done and needed her out of my apartment before I got home from work… Surprisingly, she left. I had expected her to revolt, but I guess she thought her own way of making me pay superseded any resistance, NO, it didn't. The 32inches LCD TV that she broke, the wardrobe she emptied, the iPad she took, the international passport she shredded, and the little change she took didn’t supersede me getting back my freedom and life. The next day, I went in search of my lost love. In the times that I was with Toju, I didn’t do much visiting, perhaps two or three times and it had been on her invitation. She preferred us staying at my place and always pointed out how small and cozy it is as against her large and uncomfortable one. As I drew near the estate gate, my heart became an untamed betrayal with a thump thump thump palpitation that formed danceable rhythm to my ears. What would I say to her? How would she look at me? These questions tugged at me as I brought my car to a halt right in front of her house... Brace up Livia, what’s the worse that can happen? She would slam the door in your face, NO, spit on you, NO, empty a bucket of water on you, NO, empty of jug of urine on you, MORE LIKE IT.. Three seconds after pressing the door bell, a lanky man suspected to be in his fifties but with boyish look answered. “Good evening sir, I’m here to see Toritseju” “Errmm.. who are you?” “Livia, we are friends” “Are you really?” What was he asking? Am I really friends with Toju? What kind of question is that? “Toju passed last month. All her friends were at the funeral” A tremor of uncertainty began in my belly and spread out into my limbs. Reminding myself that it was April 1st, and it’s highly possible that this stranger was making a fool out of me, I burst into uncontrollable laughter, “kwakwakwakwakwakwa” But this was a very expensive joke, people Should be banned from playing these April 1st pranks.. The stranger gawped at me in obfuscation When I was able to catch my breath, I said “please sir don’t play April Fools day with me” “What kind of a person uses death as prank? You think I’d go about telling people my wife is dead to make jokes? Please get the hell out of here” and so, my first premonition of Toju slamming the door in my face happened after all, only that in this case, she didn’t slam it, HER HUSBAND did.” As I lay in bed that night thinking that how I drove home would forever remain a mystery, my eyes burned with incipient tears. I never did understand what people mean when they say life is cruel until now, perhaps it’s because I never lost anyone before. Three days dragged by in millipede steps, work forgone, food nauseating and my life crashing before my eyes. On the fourth day, because I had run out of excuses, I reluctantly got dressed for work. As I wasn’t in the mood for anything high, I turned my back to my favourite stilettos and settled for loafers. Slipping my left leg in the moss green shoe, I felt a barrier between my toes, so I tapped the shoe on the floor and out came a piece of paper. Because I wasn’t in the habit of leaving things in my shoes, I became interested in seeing the contents of the paper. What I read sent me reeling back onto the bed and without realising it, all the junks I had managed to hold down the past two days came spewing out of my mouth, my head became light and my chest tightened. In oblivion, my hand found my cellphone and the rest, I can’t remember. When I came to, I found myself in a hospital bed, I had just survived a heart attack, I should be grateful and happy perhaps, but happiness will forever elude me. Everything and everywhere hurt but I couldn’t say what hurt most. Is it that the girl I dated for 13 months was married to someone old enough to be her father and I had not the slightest clue, or that she had colon cancer and hid it from me, or that she didn’t think she had much time to live, yet never mentioned it or that she is finally dead.. She didn’t have to tell a piece of paper that she married an old man who was based in the US as a second wife just to save her family from financial crisis or that she met me just after she found out she was sick, she certainly didn’t have to tell a paper that her life suddenly felt normal again because she met me hence, afraid to talk about her impending death for fear that she might scare me away, NO, she should have told me not a paper hidden in my shoe.. Like I said, I don’t know what hurt most, but I do know that life would never be the same because I boke a heart and now I’m broken.

When you meet a girl you fancy or when on a first date, are you calm and quiet or uneasy, talkactive and all over the place? Better still; what are you like? Pray tell.... we won't judge ☻

CRUSH To give it name would be to give it life, I thought. I refuse to name it then. I refuse to acknowledge it for fear that it might be true. This was my attitude the first time I fell in love with a girl. It had gone against everything I had been taught, everything that I thought I was, and I was afraid of what it would mean. I was still young, very naive, but I genuinely thought I knew it all, and I acted like that to the whole world. Publicly, I was just like everyone, but privately, in my mind, I was a mess. The thought of being in the same room with her made my stomach tingle with nervousness. The sound of her voice made my ears perk up to hear more. The first time her hands grazed mine in conversation, I almost crumbled in joy and excitement. Every time I saw her from across the room, spoke to her or spent any amount of time with her, it was the highlight of my day. I neglected my studies, my daily routines and I built these elaborate stories of she and I in my head. Yet, I refused to name it. I hoped that if I never acknowledged it, it wouldn’t be real. I hoped that if I never said out loud, that I had a crush on her (heck, maybe I was even in love with her) then it would die a natural death and we could all pretend it never happened. I hoped that if I didn’t name the monster, it would die a natural death. So everyday, I woke up, plastered a smile on my face, did what was expected of me, and played the mental crush-love-lust-want gymnastics in my mind. ‘Oh look how pretty she is’ I would think in my mind. ‘Look at how her smile lights up the room. Look at how she tilts her head to the side when listening to someone...look at how the skirt cups her body so perfectly.’ Days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months, months never did turn to a year before I looked in the mirror one faithful day and said to myself, gosh, I am in love with this girl… TO BE CONTINUED…

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I was thinking along these lines and decided to perhaps make it public.. the more the merrier :D So here it is... This thread is a catalogue of sorts of the things you do/have done when you miss(ed) her. All you need do is start your sentence with "When I miss you..."

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I lead a very simple life. I did everything I was supposed to do and I never had issues with anyone. Life in secondary school was on a low key till that kiss. I sat on my bed space that night, confused and devastated. The tears would not stop, I hated her so much. How could she do this to me?? I know I had kissed her first, but why would she allow it. I started to cry, I was too young for this, my brain could not fathom it. How can I be so attracted to a girl? My senior? I was done for. I cried into my pillow and vowed to avoid her like a plague. It worked for a while, I would pass another way whenever I saw her coming, she noticed. I was sad still, my heart will light up anytime I caught a glimpse of her, I wanted her yet I hated her. One night my cousin sent for me to come to her room Asap! It was normal of her to do that. I was tired that night buh I knew that I had no other option. I got there and knocked, immediately the door opened, I saw her sitting with my cousin. She looked beautiful and innocent, my heart started to race, I felt like a trapped animal and I knew I had to escape! I can't stand being in the same room with her. I was about to run when my cuz stood at the door, she wasn't going to let me go. I wondered what my Cuz knew and why she would want me to be with Senior B. I licked my lips and thought for a second, how was I going to do this?? She commanded me to take a seat, right beside senior B. I could not look at her, my face was on the door as I sat down. Our bodies touched and I felt that electricity, all I could think about was sex. The emotions and feelings was something else. She did not say a word, she just kept staring at me. After a while she stood up to go get drinking water from the tap at the back yard! I stood to follow her, she did not know. My cuz at this point was busy with other things. she got to the tap and turned it, immediately she finished, I moved closer and caught her by the waist, before she could say JACK, I lifted her off her feet and planted a wet kiss on her lips. She kissed me back. It was the most intense thing that ever happened to me. We were both lost, I could care less that we were outside and could get caught. At that point nothing mattered to me, I needed her, I could no longer deny or suppress the feelings. I just needed her so much. I ate her lips like I was hungry, she held my face between her hands, my free hand roamed her body and by the time we were done, my pant was soaked. My life changed after that night! I could not imagine my life without her anymore, She taught me things and I was a fast learner. We would make out and write letters, I was in love. So when she finally asked me out, I said Yes without a second thought. I couldn't hide it, it was so obvious, she was all I talked about, all I thought of and the letters soon got in the wrong hands. The seniors knew about it first and it came with a lot of pain. They called for me and beat the shiii out of me! They called me names and and warned me to stay off her, like I could, I knew I couldn't live without her, I wasn't gonna stop, I couldn't. I was far gone, I was lost already, nothing could have stopped me, stopped US. She wasn't around, When she got back and heard about it, she was mad. She poured her wrath on everyone that had touched me, and then came to find me. I was sitting at the back alone and frustrated. I was confused and tired, I was sad. I was feeling so many things at a time and when she came and sat beside me, I knew it was her. I did not have to turn or look around. I knew her smell, her walk, I could feel her presence. She did not touch me, she just sat there and watched me, heart broken, she could feel my pain. Some good minutes passed before she held my hand and dragged me up, I followed her meekly back to her room, she got water and took me to the bath. She took off my clothes and I just stood there enjoying her touch and care. I should run from her, I should avoid her but for the life of me I couldn't. She started to wash me, she payed special attentions to the parts that hurt, I winced in pain whenever she traced a red mark. Our eyes met for an instant and I could not take them off, the fire I saw in her, it was like a magnet, I couldn't break eye contact, before I knew it, my lips were on hers. I kissed her like my life depended on it, her lips tasted like butter, like life. How could something this wrong feel so good? It was a sad kiss, I felt like breaking into tears but her hand, her touch, her feel reassured me and I knew that I was Never ever going to leave HER.

"Tee! Do you think God hates us?" I said looking at her, she was so beautiful, everything I could ever want and more. She raised her eyebrows and seemed to think for a while before replying "I don't think he hates us,I don't wanna think about cray stuffs like that tho" she said nonchalantly as she drew me closer. Our bodies melted like wax, we were joined, body and soul. I could almost taste her thoughts. How is it possible to love and understand someone this much? How can this be a sin? She started to kiss me and I rose to her lips, it started slowly but the need grew and grew till we were practically eating each other. I wanted her so much, I have never wanted anything this much in my entire life. The sex that night was different. The orgasm was sweet in a painful way and after it passed I started to cry. She cuddled me and whispered sweet nothings into my ears, it worked. The tears turned into a trickle and I sniffed and held her even closer, she kissed my tears and said "Make a wish Bee" I did not think about it, it came out straight out of my heart. "I wish God would accept US".

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If you were to come out of the closet right now, who would you inform first...and why?

Relationships are the same, that’s true, but there some differences between straight and lesbian relationships. On one hand, there are fun things about being in a lesbian relationship. On the other hand, we’re also sure there are pluses on the other side of the team. It’s not that we’re comparing ourselves, but there are still people out there wondering how these two are different. Let’s enlighten those who don’t know how lesbian relationships are different from the straight ones. Straight And Lesbian Relationships Difference #1: Celebrity Status We’re serious about this. When two women walk into a restaurant and have a nice quiet dinner, the whole place stops to take a look at us. This is especially more intense when said two women walk in hand in hand. Who else do you know can stop activity like that– except celebrities? Okay, seriously now, we do get a lot more attention than straight couples. If in the past these are more on the negative side, this time people are cheering us on for being out and proud. So there. That’s a celebrity status in a way. Straight And Lesbian Relationships Difference #2: Periodic Table When you’re in a straight relationship, this means only one of you has their menstrual periods. This also means at least three days in a month, you can’t have sex unless you want it all bloody. With lesbian relationships, two people have their periods and sometimes they don’t happen at the same time. Ergo, in a lesbian relationship there are at least six days of no sexual contact. It’s a good thing then sometimes we like to just cuddle, especially when we’re feeling hormonal. Straight And Lesbian Relationships Difference #3: One Night Stands When they said that women are from Venus, what they meant was while men have a tendency to have sex on the brain, women are more inclined towards intimacy. More women would prefer to have sex when the objective is long term. So in a straight relationship, there is one partner who would want to have sex with you, period. In a lesbian relationship, on the other hand, there are more chances that both partners would want to get to know each other better before going to bed together. No surprise here that one-night stands in a lesbian relationship have a tendency to turn into relationships. Straight And Lesbian Relationships Difference #4: Birth Control Lesbian relationships have a higher savings on their account. Why? We don’t need a budget for birth control pills and condoms. What for when we have no use for them. At all. Wonderful, isn’t it? Straight And Lesbian Relationship Difference #5: Pregnancies Because of the above, we don’t have to deal with unwanted pregnancies and indulge in abortion. Not unless we woke up one day and same-sex relations can now produce babies. Of course, this is a news feature and not a science fiction literature. There’s no chance of that ever happening. So, truth be told, lesbian relationships are the ultimate pro-life, pro-choice unions. We have a choice not to have children, and we have a choice to adopt instead. What makes us all the same? We’re all people and we all have the right to love whom we love. Source