Home - Away from chaos

[Dipbluesae]

It's funny.. how things start to go well for us or even better, the moment we find a good partner. Things start going so amazingly well and we never have to struggle for anything. 

When my elder sister came home and got married to her now husband. The whole process took about a month. Every damn thing, including getting her husband's papers.  UK normally has the easiest visa route for Nigerians, for one moment to be honest, I wished I lived there. 

I was so worried about moving back here and leaving my baby so far away, I really didn't want a long distance relationship anymore. At that moment, Canada with their hectic visa requirements became something I was scared of.

But like I said, things just work out when you are with the right person. Stress free and at the right moment. 

Sometimes, I remember how it all began and it's crazy.  It's not everyday that you meet someone from such distance and it turns out to be this amazing. Truth is, I could have ended up with anyone. It could have been anyone but no, it's my baby. And she's the kindest,smartest,most understanding human I have ever met!

We met. We fell in love. We became best friends. I don't know why, but this is one of the kindest act the universe has bestowed upon me. Maybe as a compensation, maybe because I have always desired a family. Regardless, It is something I am grateful for. It couldn't have been by merit alone. This is not my first relationship. But it is my absolute best.  It is something I have sought for most of my adult life. I am forever thankful for the gift of flower. Forever hers 🌼.

In this whole wide world, there's nothing I could do that I wouldn't do for her. No one has cared for me. Loved me. Showed me that they loved me. Like she has. For the first time in my life, I actually feel seen, loved, appreciated, and understood by my partner.  In the way that I have always wanted. I am fortunate. I am grateful 🙏 

[Dipbluesae]

Love is beautiful you know. Sincere love is the most beautiful thing on the face of the earth. I love you flower. With all my pure heart. ♥️ 

I have been loved. I am grateful for this love 🙏  May it stay lite. May we flourish ✨️ 

[Dipbluesae]

Today is one of those days.. I miss you Mother. ♥︎

 

[Dipbluesae]

In about a couple weeks my baby will be arriving in Canada. 😄

We've been preparing. Getting ready. This has to be the biggest step I have taken in a relationship. (The rest you'll know later 😃)

By the way, I finally ordered a couch and other little decor stuffs for our apartment here. (Took me quite awhile to decide how the living room is gonna look, I'm not the best person for decor trust me 😊 but I think I got it figured out)

We got people to buy all of my baby's stuff as well from her apartment in Nigeria. So that's out of the way.

Right now, we just waiting and watching. It's been a tad stressful looking for a full-time role in this small city. (My baby and I agreed that we'll relocate to Calgary as soon as she is done with her school here and hopefully make it a home)

May 19 and 26 is our birthdays. I will be 29 and my baby will turn 30. Old age 😄 Anyway, we've decided to celebrate both our birthdays this year on the 26 since she will be here.

Being 30 is a big deal. I hope I can make it memorable enough for her. Happy birthday in advance my lover 😘 

She is quite excited.  She's put in so much work to be here and I am happy for her. About this time last year, we chatted for the first time and here we are planning life together for the rest of our lives.

Exciting stuff to look forward to! There's time for everything. This is ours. Welcome Home! ♥︎

[Dipbluesae]

You know, I like to think that my baby is a really fortunate human.

I am the second woman she's dating and according to her, the previous relationship wasn't as heartbreaking as normal lesbian relationships usually are, and now here I am, loving her the best way that I can. The best way because she deserves every bit of it!

We met at a point where I am really ready to settle down. I say really ready because although I may have always been ready, I was always afraid of living with someone thanks to all the numerous crazy fights I encountered in relationships past. I was so convinced that I can not live in a house with a woman and have peace. 

When we started dating it's one of the things that amazed me, we rarely fight and many times it was weird to me, but it was normal to my girlfriend because that's what she was used to.  I, on the other hand was used to relationship chaos.

Yet, It was also one of my biggest fear, committing to someone in marriage and it turning out to be full of chaos. I genuinely wanted to go crazy with one of my ex's because it was so chaotic. Although I do not like to refer to her as my ex. Just a relationship that never should have happened. 

But my baby shows me sincere love. She gives me so much peace. She respects me. She loves and cares for me. She shows me that I am everything to her. She never fails to let me know.

For example, here is one of her excerpts to me:

"Times like this I remember why I fell for you. The way you take care of me even from a distance. The way you worry even when you don't have to. The way you want me to have everything I need. The way you love me. You have proven time and time again to be the best thing in my life. When I say that I will choose you over and over. I mean it. I don't want this any other way.Your love is enough for me"

PS: My baby can write 😊. She is a writer/poet and she is absolutely good with words. 

When my baby met me, she was ready to relocate. She was tired of Nigeria and she told me honestly, from the get-go. She didn't try to sugar coat it. She told me she was tired of dating Nigerians living in Nigeria as well because apparently one person always assumes a leadership role and tend to want to control the other and she hated that. And then, she met me. Me, a grown woman who has evolved over the years and does not share in any form of heteronormative gender roles, and lives overseas. She, a ready woman. A smart woman. With goals and dreams mapped out. Just waiting for support and encouragement.

My baby is a fortunate human back to back and I like it since I will be tapping from her well (pun intended). 😃 

Anyway, I was just thinking tonight about everything and it's quite wild.

I am also very fortunate. Just meeting my baby is one of the most fortunate things to have happen to me. When we met she was not really searching, I don't know how I managed to convince her but I'm glad I didn't give up on the first day.

Maybe it's because no one I have dated has ever loved me so selflessly and so sincerely. It was mostly about what I was willing to do for them. I am very grateful for my baby. She listens to me. She understands me. She encourages me. And she is there for me. She was the first person I've dated who told me that I am her family. The first person I have dated who has done something meaningful for me. She meets me half way and I respect her for it.  My girlfriend is a very generous woman. She is a giver, not a taker. I am a giver too. And so, I am the one who has to remember that she has needs too and try to support her.  

I do love my baby. The things I have contemplated doing for her, I have never thought about doing for anyone. It would be an honor to build a home with her and I want nothing less.

I wanna do meaningful things together. Make babies together. Love each other till forever.  I am thankful for her. Always and everyday 🌼 

PS: Tonight, I sent her a picture of what I have done with our apartment. I left her a message because she was  asleep, and minutes later she woke up, still sleepy, yet she called me.   She told me "Thank you baby for everything."  And then I asked her to go back to bed. She is a very grateful human you know. Down to the littlest things. My one in a million woman ♥︎

I am a finished woman sha 😃 

[Dipbluesae]

Funny though isn't it, that the woman whom I intended to love silly isn't the woman whom I am loving silly.

Life is something else. 😃

Still, I wish everyone happiness and love. I am here now with the absolute love of my life and to me that is the only thing that truly matters.

♥︎

[Dipbluesae]

So, my baby wanted a new phone. And we settled on a Samsung Galaxy S24 Ultra - Yea.. we're Samsung loyalists and the Ultra is the bomb 😉 - but as it turned out, I am low on cash and it was a bit too much for me at the moment (still is 😃)

I told my baby this, and she said we can always get it later. But I have been thinking and looking for ways to get it at a not so crazy cost. It's my baby's 30th birthday afterall and I wanted to get her something she truly wanted haha

So, I went to Samsung website and saw that they're running a promo. I could get some couple hundred dollars off.

Anyway, long story cut short. I ordered the phone for her. The phone comes with a free airpod attached to it. I know I am bad with surprises but I really wanna surprise her with this when she arrives.

Lol she's gonna be super excited! I can't wait to see her face. I will try my best not to tell her beforehand.

Like welcome home baby, here is your much desired phone 😉 

Hahaha! So cool!

 

[Dipbluesae]

My baby did something tonight that's making me quite emotional. 

Remember how I mentioned previously that I am low on cash and that I told her. She woke up in the middle of the night and told me she's feeling restless and when I asked why, she said because I am spending so much and that she was going to help me out in her own way.

Her thoughtfulness is insane. The way she think of me, understand and support me.

My baby is everything I thought I'd never have in a relationship. She is everything to me. There's nothing and I mean absolutely nothing, I wouldn't do for her if I could.  

I do love her, with all my pure heart. ♥︎

 

[Dipbluesae]

Today is my 29th birthday, and unlike last year,  I am elated. I am grateful because life has in so many ways, been good to me even on days I feel I don't deserve it. I am in what I would like to call the best relationship of my life, with someone who agreed to uproot her whole life to be with me. I am comfortable, I can afford - relatively, the good things of life. I am emotionally stable more than ever. I have grown in so many ways beyond the pains, beyond the heartbreaks and beyond the hopelessness. I have learned, unlearned and I am still learning. I would like to believe that I have everything I want. 

Couple days ago, my baby gave me a gift. She sent me a thousand dollars and I feel very much loved by this very woman. Everything I do for her, I promise to do with all my heart. For her support and her love. 

But today is about me. I am grateful for the gift of everything that life has given me. I do not take them for granted and do not intend to.

May the universe continue to provide, protect, and preserve me and all that is mine. 

Happy 29th birthday D.B.S ♥︎