A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy By Sue Klebold

[RayBlac]

A little story on how I got to read this book... I am sort of impulsive by nature (working on this, I promise, though it is haaaarrrrrd) and I was going to commit one last act of impulsion sometime last month (last year , if you like). I was unable to go through with it though. Could have been the desire to get to the root of the cause that perhaps stopped me or maybe I wasn't "courageous" enough to down its contents or... I had the mixture in a cup and held it for a long time; bringing it to my lips at certain intervals and having the sickly smell of its contents fill my nostrils. I imagined myself draining the contents in a single gulp and afterwards screaming for help: Make it stop! Please, make it stop. I equally imagined my insides being corroded by the acid and dying long before I was noticed. But I think I primarily wanted to understand all what these (gesturing around me) meant and ending things like that without giving it a try wasn't enough (yet).

What I did next was to empty the contents out of the cup and got rid of the container. I got back inside, got my phone and chose to "look for a way". AnyBooks was my first choice and so I typed some words pertaining to mental health and Sue Klebold's book came up.  It was tagged non-fiction and was about mental health. I read through the summary of what the book was about, I downloaded it and it became my first book for the year, 2020.

Now, what is A Mother's Reckoning: Living in the Aftermath of Tragedy all about? This is a mother's story of how she lost her son by murder-suicide. You see, in the book she expressed her shock and unbelief at the actions of her son: she didn't believe him capable of such violence, she didn't know he was greatly depressed. She might have been aware of the signs - no, she saw them - but she didn't think them to be danger signs of something malevolent to happen. She thought them to be common teenager problems that would go away but how wrong she was.

After that tragic incident, she has given up her life to studying everything about mental health. All these she shares in her book and I highly recommend this book to everyone because a decline in mental health can happen to anyone.

For me, going through those pages was very very challenging: I could see what I was going through, what I lacked and what I wished I had, in those pages. I almost stopped reading it. I even asked myself at a certain point why I was reading the book in the first place. What was I going to gain by torturing myself in this way?? But because of the resolution I made and the desire to know what Sue had discovered and her message to everyone, I persevered. I actually finished the book today, I didn't want to let it extend to February and I am thankful.

 

[kimi]

Thank you for sharing... I would search the book out. 

How are you feeling/doing? Stay strong home girl. We are here xx

[Txunamy]

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